I Get a Clean Bed to Sleep In

I guess this blog I started is turning out to be more of a journal for me. A place for me to write about my day and feel safe doing so. I was able to make a sale online this morning. I used the money to do 1 load of laundry at the laundromat and get cat food. I still don’t have clean clothes but at least I have clean bedding to sleep on tonight. I actually got to sleep last night without him waking me up. Even though I was still sleeping on a shower curtain with no blanket or pillowcases. 

This morning he was in a somewhat okay mood. But then he saw that my mattress was scooted over just a little bit and instantly went into an episode. He tells himself that the bed is moved because I had sex on it. I left the voice recorder going on my phone all night while I slept. 

He won’t listen to it because it will prove to him that I wasn’t having sex with anyone, and that would prove him wrong. 

I decided to add a few texts messages from him to me over the past few years, since his delusions started. This is only a few, there are hundreds, if not thousands more.